Tuesday, August 4, 2009
a lot
My heart is changing too. In ways that are awesome, scary, and just full of hope. I know that from now on things are shifting and changing into what He wants, but at this point I don't know what that is. Lol Its fun to be on the journey to find out. i don't have deep things to say or do crazy things for attention. I just want to be me, and live. But why does that seem the most challenging?
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Dates...
Its funny how certain days that at one time had no meaning suddenly hold so many things. The promise of the future, of love and faith. Wide-eyed things that should have been the warning signs, but with the rose colored shades on. and then the promise fades and what were once good intentions are now tears and thoughts of what it could have been. July 10. An anniversary of the past. For me there was so much that was in that day. So much that was so special. I loved the family, the friends, and my husband. Now ex…To think that forever I will remember that day for what it could have been, hurts. The healing has begun, and it has been wonderful. He has been with me every step of the way, but now I’m realizing that the future still holds promise.
I can still love again. I have learned through the lows that I can still love through it. Love has taken on another meaning for me. It’s deeper, more spiritual, and it holds so many other things instead of those overused words for other things. Love does hurt, there is pain there, but it still has the power to make you soar. There can be tears of joy and of peace with love. Even tears of remorse and regret. Love is so much more powerful than I ever thought. To know there are so many that truly love me it’s breathtaking, and provides such a salve to the wound that will inevitably scar. I know it will always remain, but I can carry it encased in a seal of love…
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Hm..
So much has been on my mind as of late. Things that I'm realizing I want to and need to change. But fear has held be bound for too long...And to even think without it is crippling. But I know its time to reclaim my life. The things that I know are destined for me. I want my passion back. And I think I'm ready to fight for it...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
R&R
Sweet blessings of love and grace,
T
Listening to the Opposite playlist and wishing I added some Fleetwood Mac to it.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Hello! ^_^
Ramblings of a butterfly just realizing she had wings to fly. God is teaching her how to use them.