Veerrry Interesting

It's been a good week and for the first time I can say I've gone a full week without buying fast food and I plan to keep it that way. This whole different eating and thinking and working out thing has been different but I also feel in some ways I kind of fell into it. Because honestly its everything that I have wanted to do but honestly? Just didn't for whatever excuse. I feel like it can stick and that excites me and scares me. I have so much support now its coming out of my ears. All I can say is "Just keep going"

Oh right...

So today I have been sooo grouchy. x.x But I know what it is, first and foremost I am working on my last class of the quarter and finishing that up is stressful. To a point. I also want to sleep more than anything else, which doesn't help matters. BUT I'm almost done and that's cool. I went for a walk which pretty much wiped out the grouchy and made me smile. I love this time of year and seeing the ducks and sunsets. It's so pretty out here in Kentucky. A lot more than I thought it would be. Moving forward and staying focused!

Still moving forward tho'

So I didn't go to the gym today but man I was so wiped that honestly if I tried I know that I know I would have passed out. But I did make some leeway into recipes for clean eating and low fat cooking. I've decided that it really is time to let go of the processed foods but man oh man with that on the corner honestly it makes me mad now...And craving for it. Not so much after beginning to question why something so simple as a cheeseburger has so many calories..Oh wait, it's because there are so many chemicals in it to preserve it from SHIPPING to the restaurant where it is 'cooked'. Uhm, no thanks. I can make my own...And cupcakes? I think I can officially make my own. lol But that's the thing, looking through all of these books makes me want to cook from scratch. It's cheaper and it's so much better for me. So we shall see but let me tell you how excited I am about it. VERY. ^_^

Good morning!

I'm sitting here eating my oatmeal with cranberries in the first part of getting ready for church. I plan on heading over to Quest after a long time of more or less running. We'll see honestly...I have had to admit after everything that went down at my old church fear of commitment to anything like that just gives me the willies. But I know its apart of my relationship with God and I feel rather dry and moldy in that area. So we shall see but I'll be praying that I can put my fear aside to really step forward and into this.

http://www.questcommunity.com/

Also I am completely inspired even more to lose weight. Instead of one website which was telling me that I had to but didn't even give any advice on how until after the fact, this blog is completely the opposite. Recipes, exercises and an awesome testimony of how changing one's mindset, which is one of my main issues and then just doing it, can change your life. I'm even more excited now and have abolished the word cheat from my vocab. So onward we go!!

http://blackgirlsguidetoweightloss.com/

...I am so bad at this blog thing.

But I think it's time that I change that just a bit. Especially with what I have embarked on. A quest to lose weight. Yes, the neverending quest to do what just seems impossible. But it truly isn't and for the first time, I have my brain on board too. Usually I would be ready body wise, and everything else wouldn't be there. Now I have the mentality to do it, which actually makes me hesitant and freaked out. I never have been apprehensive before but I've also never been this hopeful. I actually know that this time is different. So we shall see.